12.16.2013

在分岔路的时候，用理智还是跟着心走。

那么努力，到底最终的目的是什么？

彷徨的时候，看着天。人生不过如此。

一生，一时。

最初，最终。

今天的我，总会把昨天的我，看得很无知。

长不大。心灵，那么的脆弱。

记得，看过一个很有意思的短文，

‘拿一个碟子，往地上丢。’

‘恩，好的。’

‘碎了吗？’

‘碎了。’

‘那你可以恢复原状吗？’

‘。。。’

有些人，有时很不愿意承认，在你心中留下了不可磨灭的痕迹。

很想忘记。没了伤口，却留下了疤痕。

再怎么修补，回不到从前，找不到天真。

可是，努力，一个诚恳的心，可以把两个心，重新认识。

没办法回到最初，不如从头来过，把信心建立在磐石。

至少，消除了遗憾。

一些年，过得很荒唐。

轰轰烈烈，或归于平平淡淡。

泪水，是装饰。不完美中的完美。

恨一个人，不如爱一个人。

这些年，你过得还好吗？

珍惜眼前人。

错过，再也没有机会。

开拓视野。

也许，把怨恨埋起来。

感恩，感谢。

一切，都会美好。

失落的时候，不乱乱发脾气。

不把自己封锁。

失败的时候，不气馁。

哭过了，就要站起来。

勇气。

谁说，暴风雨后的彩虹才是最绚丽？

用心去领会，可能，风暴里的风景，是你拾回信心及勇气的源头。

2013年，快过了。时间，真的不等人。

悄悄地在你手指的缝隙中，像流沙般的，随风而去。

怎么抓，也抓不住。

Blessings. love.

进退

默默无声。
一定被人当作无理取闹。
一次·一次。
崩溃。
想抽离·
自己到底要什么。
没想法，还是不敢有想法。
可能，之间真的有，我跨不过的距离。
我透不过气了。
很累了，
假装什么事都没发生。
微笑。不要虚伪。
忙碌，真的可以让我忘记。
那短暂的心疼。
为何。我真的不明白。
我也不想去明白。
倦了。
每一个字，压着。
不要再留意了。
明知道，结果会是一样。
我该怎么逃。
是我的问题吗。
还是要学会大方一点。
能容忍吗。
遏止，想念的心。

燃烧的希望

当凤凰从火中出来，
是重生，是希望。
烧焦了的伤痕，是记忆。
永不磨灭。
长得漂亮，是优势，
活得漂亮，是本事。

Awesome!

Our GOD is an awesome God,
He reignth from heaven above,
With wisdom, power and love,
Our GOD is an awesome God.

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快乐的人，需要活下去。
不快乐的人，也需要活下去。
一念之间。
喜与悲。

It's pretty.

Guess this will be a long post. :B 

I have been attending to the gatherings. And that's how i spent my time.

LOL. Hahah.

Yinjoe, Jinyuen, Shuping, Weixin and me. 

This photo is taken by a passer-by and the photo quality is terrible.

But still, as a memory, this photo is undeniably pretty.

Capturing every precious moment, albeit we are all lame. HAHA. <3 nbsp="">

This is supposingly to be uploaded to the instagram. Original one.

But cropping made the photo to become half -.-

I love all of you. HAHAHA.

Decorating cards with panda claris wei xin. Some of them FFK. -.-

Which i predicted earlier. How pro was i.

We love to do silly poses. HAAHA. <3 p="">

Thanks for bearing my temper. :B

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Ping, hope you will do well there (;

I will terribly miss you. 

If i became an alien, will you love me? :P

HAHAHA. I guess you won't.

Some of you may, because i am so unique.

Weird creature.

Abigail, me, teacher shemy, suet and duck :D
They are adorable.

                                                 

With my favourite girl + love mentor. HAAHAH.

                                                       

Salt, pepper and chilli. :B HAHAHA.

 Just joking, they are my ingredients to make my life better.

                                                 

Subang friends.They came from different states.

And honesty keeps our friendship long-lasting, i reckon.

                                           

School uniforms aren't pretty. HAHAHA.

With the most perasan guy.

Thanks for being my mentor. HAAH.

I know i am sendimental, which i can't help it.

We should yumcha and take nice photos. :B

Yan and clinton are at the back.

Clinton, you are really funny :P

Although your jokes are so lame,

but still for a lame person like me,

I can laugh like a crazy woman.

Guess my EQ very low.

(IQ very high) :P HAHAHA.

Nola, just joking.

Both IQ and EQ are low. 

Chin yuen and me. HAHA

Polaroids are irresistibly beautiful. 

I really love having tuition with you. HAHAHA.

It was hilarious when we were having tuition with Wong.

Wong is pro, thus helping us to brighten our futures.

I really pray that our friendship will last long long long. HAHAHAH.

And thank you for bearing my silliness and craziness.

And being my mentor. 

People think that i am quiet, but those who really know me well think that i am crazy.

I can laugh so loud, and i guess that's the real part of me.

Being cold and cool is only the outer protective layer.

*HAHAA, i have so many mentors*

How lucky am i. Besides the two pathetic fellas.

I will not forget you. HAHAHA. 

The picture of him.

Anyone interested?

He is still single and available.

Please do not hesitate to contact me.

Pm me. HAHAHA

He's really a nice guy.

The only disadvantage is his height. :P:P

The mates that i really adore.

All of you are long-winded.

Thanks for the advice.

However, i will still blame myself for that.

After all, it's related to me.

The news has plunged me into deep depression.

And all of you tried to pull me up.

The conversation made an indelible impression on me.

No words can describe how i love you all. (:

Pretty couple. (; 

Wish both of you happily ever after.

Both of you are super cute. 

Sorry for posting without your permission :D

Love is something you can't touch, but you can feel with your heart.

Me, ping and handsome. HAHAAH.

Happy? :P

Endearing smiles, which make us all lovely.

I have a friend, haha, we never take pictures before.

It's a blessing, because he is my mentor too. HAHAAH

Why do i have so many problems?

LOL. Keegan. HAHAHA.

It's surprising we don't talk to each other in real life.

But how can we talk so many craps in facebook and whatsapp?

SO LAME. HAHAH. Full of sarcasm and criticism.

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 一种很无奈的感觉。
爱的反面一定是恨吗？
妒忌，足以焚烧一个人的心。
满是报复的念头，快乐吗？
证明了你是能的，然后呢？
空虚吗？又如何呢？
人比人，不累吗。
为何要比较呢？
为何要怨天呢？
不公平吗?
 变了，很陌生。
不再单纯了。
也许，我们不应该认识。
那么，成为了陌生人，你的报复心，会不会没有了？
你会变得这样·，是你放不开，是你不甘心，是你妒忌。
自己拿来的，为何要责怪别人。
真的很可怕。可悲得令人心寒。
自己所拥有的一切，本就应该珍惜。
贪图人的，埋怨自己的命运，恨的。
为何，不能接受呢？
自己有自己的路，为何埋怨别人走得宽阔，轻松？
自己却满路坎坷。
还是，真心的祝福你，
不是希望你的报复计划成功，
是希望你找到人生的目标，好好地活下去。
虽然，我知道你很恨我，恨得想把我灭了。
我还是，希望，不对，应该是奢望，我们是朋友吧。
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你活得很快乐吧。
很欣慰。
你的天空应该比我漂亮吧。
虽然我的天空有点灰。
 真心地祝福你。
过去的过去，很荒唐。
一切，让它活在过去吧。
我累了。放不开，很无奈。
明知道爱情并不可靠。
太容易让自己牺牲。
泪干了，是结束吧。
我不知道，放得开是几久。
真的不要让自己陷得越深，
不然抽不出身，真的很可悲了。
第几次了。明知道结局会是这样。
好好地走，那里的天空一定比这里绚丽。

不要原地踏步

It's a blessing.
Truly i appreciate those.
Thank you, deep within my heart.
I really love all of you.
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I reckon, both of you treat me like a virus.
Both of you are cowards.
Please, open up your hearts and minds and talk to me,
as usual.
I won't bite. Lol.
Sigh.
We were friends long time ago.
And love made us to become like this.
How sucks.
I don't know why, i meant, letting go is the hardest part to do.
And i am still trying to letting go.
Relationships, are complicated.
Why can't we simplify it?
After all, humans are the one who make things complicated.
I really miss how we text each other, like normal friends.
I do appreciate our friendships, as if you don't.
Somehow, deep within my heart, sorrow strikes whenever you ignore me.
And i whispered to myself, that's how you show appreciation to our friendship.
Of course, i can't stop myself from calling both of you as cowards.
As timid as rat.
We have our own paths to walk and to fall.
How will that be good if we continue to support whenever we feel helpless?
Wake up from dreams, i know that day will not come.
I am just a piece of paper to both of you.
Just to step on and throw.
I feel lucky, to have both of you once upon a time.
I would like to express my gratitude to both of you.
Sincerity will not keep our hearts apart.
Truly, i wish all the best for both of you.
The gathering on that day is indeed pathetic.
I shouldn't have attended.
But still, i am looking forward to attending the coming three gatherings. (;
Maybe they are the one who i shall grab and appreciate.

Only love.

Things has been changing tremendously. The weather is scorching hot everyday, and headache easily strikes. It's still a long path. How to forget. Such complications, things has not set right apart. Ups and downs. Guess they are the lessons to be learnt. Falling down, doesnt mean losing. It's just another way to grow up. How will you be, i wonder.

Breathe,

I'm so free nowadays. Looking at the sky, daydreaming. Such relaxing. It will be July for my a level course to start. A new college, a new beginning, perhaps. I will be travelling two places in May and June :P One with my mother and one with my godparents. I will be tougher. Stand strong. HAAHAHA. Winter, is a beautiful season and one of my favourite seasons as well. I just love snow. Pure white, coldness. Snow is pretty, huh? Perhaps i will post more after my trips. Just bought a compact camera and an insta mini 8. Polaroids are fun, indeed. However, the polaroids are expensive :( Since i don't have to go to college, i always accompany my mother. Opps, it's the other way round actually. Boredom, sucks. -------- I'm glad, and proud of myself. FINALLY, it's like putting everything down. The feeling fades away, and we don't text each other anymore. I suppose, we know better ways for ourselves. We don't suit for each other. It's utmost vital to find someone, who really knows you. Tolerance, forgiveness, love. They are essential for a healthy relationship to grow. Letting go, and the burden has finally laid down. It's time to let go if the timing isn't right. Life still goes on. And you can still live without him or her. Slowly, you will find your way. ------------------ Sorry to say, life is always filled with emptiness. Loneliness, emptiness, even the King Solomon who was the wisest person in the world, said that 'Life is utterly meaningless.' ----------- An ounce of happiness, makes the world a better place.

有没有那么一天

呵呵呵。新年要到了。 最主要还是，我很喜欢很喜欢假期。 虽然呆在家会很闲，但是我很享受。×好肤浅× 最近，很像很多感触。 不知道为什么。生理期？啊哈哈哈。我的很不正常。 懒的去理会。 好多好多事情发生。 选择喜欢和被喜欢的。真的好不同。 距离真的跨不过。我累了。 女生还是靠自己，比较实际。×女强人× 好想念以前。没什么忧虑。好多童真。 其实，我还在做我的research. -.- 做到一半，哈哈哈。 好想念她们。嘻嘻哈哈。有多38. 不知道，很多的不知道。 我突然想起，有个人，跟我承诺过。 哈哈哈，如果过了form5 我还没有， 他欠我东西。 还是不可能吧，都没说话了。 好尴尬。 一段好端端的友情，无端端就这样。 事实上，我一点都不好。都不知道他在想什么。 如果有如果。 我真的一直相信，男女之间会有纯友谊。 无暇旁人的误会。 算了算了。 从前的回忆。 勇敢了太久。 多希望找一个人聊心事。 渐渐地发现，另一个他真的很不适合我。 太多的想法，对我忽冷忽热。 喜欢，只是一个感觉。 我的理智，超过我的感觉。 一切，都会随风而散吧。 真真地寻找，应该会很久很久。 如果，喜欢的是另另一个他。可能真的会好吧。 错误的开始，潦草的结束。 会有遗憾吗。留下的，不过是一些受伤的碎片， 还有浪费掉的纸巾。 前面，有很漂亮的风景。 好好地前行。

Indescribable.

Hello, it's saturday! (: College life is really different i have to say. In the new environment, i really miss home, miss my mama papa and brother. I have such disease called homesickness. I nearly shed tears in college because i can't really adapt to the new environment. I like to sitck with my mother. I act like a baby, or i am a baby. I admire my friends to being so brave and independent to further their studies from far places. It would not be me definitely. Not for now, perhaps. Life is such a journey. ups and downs. I have to say that i am lucky to go home everyday. Will be having driving test in the february. Hope i really can pass. *cross my fingers* The traffic is sluggish everyday, so i have to take roughly an hour to college. I'm bored of it. I wish i am still my mama and dada's little princess. I don't like so called 'adult' life. It's fiendishly not suitable for me.I have to say i am not that sociable.